As much as I love my shows, and end up obsessing over them, it does always annoy me when they shove in a minor character that we haven’t seen for years, and expect us to remember everything about them by a quick ‘previously’ snippet. You know, unless it’s someone I love, like Ash. Or The Trickster.

So anyway…

I have tried writing this post in my head a bajillion times, and I keep getting all hung up with the details. I keep trying to recap the damn thing, when all I want to do is talk about Dean. Please bear with me while I try and work through this.

I get it, Dean has put everything into his family. He feels like Sam has betrayed him, that Bobby can’t help the same way he used to be able to for physical and emotional reasons. Let’s not even get into Daddy Winchester. Even Dean’s latest man crush, Castiel, probably didn’t do Dean any favors by showing up LOADED. BTW, LoadedCastiel was awesome. Misha Collins has done such a great job with that character. So everyone is gone, Dean finds out that he has the Hand of God – or whatever – after killing the Lying Liar Who Lies (and I think I was just as surprized as Dean was, actually), and he runs off to give himself up to Michael? I mean, that’s where we’re going with this, right?

Sam made a comment like “Wow, so that’s what it’s like to have back up.” after their fight at the farmhouse with the townspeople. To me this was a very telling moment between those pretty Winchester boys. For all of Dean’s bellowing about how they had to fight Lucifer, no matter what, Sam seems to be the one who is willing to change their M.O. While Sam was marveling at the thought of having an actual army to fight the demons, Dean was shutting down in his misery and alone-ness and self pity. Just when Sam seems to really be getting the idea to truly be on board for the fight, Dean is at his end. Why can’t these two ever be on the same page at the same time? It’s all so sad, my friends.

So Dean takes off, in some kind of last ditch craziness, and shows up at the door of the woman who gave birth to the NotDean kiddo we met a few seasons ago (or was it last season? I can’t remember, show!). Apparently setting himself up a potential happy and normal life if he lives through housing Michael and dealing with, no doubt, the shenanigans of Zachariah. Not to mention Lucifer. OMG, we are headed right for it people! Sam v. Dean in the showdown of the ages.

Awful if you love these beauteous boys named Winchester, but compelling. I just hope Kripke can pull it off.